Ladies, you will all understand this battle. The one where as you gain and lose weight over the years your closet begins to be separated into fat clothes, clothes you really want to wear again and the coveted, smallest size you've ever been that in the back of your head you fear you will never fit in again, BUT there is no way you'll let go of clothes! Why we hold on to all of these sizes is beyond me!? But honestly, holding on to them all has saved me a TON of money!
When I started losing weight this time I decided to break the habit of holding on to the fat clothes. I convinced myself that in the past I made it too easy on myself to gain weight back by keeping those big jeans and when 10 lbs creeped back on, I'd silently slip in to the bigger pants in the closet. Not this time! In 20 months I have given away over 40 thirty gallon garbage bags of clothes. (ouch, that's a TON of money) First I separated my closet into sizes...and as I went down a size, I would bag up the size before and move into the smaller size! This has been awesome. Each time I would get excited thinking about how good I'd feel getting back into some of the smaller things that were favorites I had long since missed wearing! I took these old clothes to Curves for other girls losing weight that didn't have the money to keep buying new stuff either! I donated some to a shelter, took some to a Naked Lady Party...dropped some off at Good Will...whatever got them out of my closet and took away my excuse to ever put that weight back on! It was SO freeing!
Friday night after a friend gave me a whole new summer wardrobe in my new size 14 I decided it was time to do another sweep of the closet. As I started my ritual of taking everything out and reorganizing I got really emotional....very mixed emotions! Some of the items I am letting go of this time are some of my all time favorite clothes, clothes I couldn't wait to get back into when I started this almost 2 years ago. I also realized that I have now gotten rid of EVERYTHING! There are no more clothes hanging in the closet for me to "get into". I have no more "skinny" clothes to work towards! WOW! 16 was the smallest size in my closet....the smallest I have ever been...until now!
So, when I get into a 12 ( I was a 12 when I was a kid!!!!!!!!) or 10, 8.... I will have to buy all new clothes!!!!!! How exciting is that!?!?! Expensive, but exciting! I am so excited for a future with a closet that is completely wearable! Everything on the hangers fits, no clothes I am "working to get into" and no clothes I am "praying I never wear again." I am well on my way!
One interesting thing I found in my closet on Friday was my Class of 96 Seniors shirt! Most people have clothes from high school they would love to fit in again. I tried this shirt on....it hung to my knees and swallowed me! WOOOOO HOOOOO I was SO happy! I am so not that girl anymore! Each time I gave away the bags of clothes, I gave away some baggage from my life! And I am feeling liberated!
I am still scale free...it's been almost a week since I have weighed in...I am going nuts, but I have not even gotten the scale out. I did see a scale this morning at the gym and had to really fight the urge to jump on it....praying I make it to June 17......
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